This is not the article I promised the editorial board I'd write -
a somber reflection on the unknown price paid by the younger
generation, of which I was part, that fought the 1948 war on the
Israeli side. Hundreds and perhaps thousands of these felt out of
place in the new state and left it. I intended to tell the personal
stories of some of them. I remember drinking a whole bottle of
whiskey during a long night with one of them who came back and
tried to build his life again here and then gave it up, telling me
towards dawn: "It's no use. My country was murdered in 1948. This
is the last time I am visiting here." And it was.
I also intended to refer the readers to Netiva Ben-Yehuda's novel
Miba'ad La'avolot (Through the Fetters), perhaps the most
straightforward and somber account of the experiences of that
generation, and the great disillusionment that began to percolate
among many of its members (it was by no means general).
Rethinking an Article
But I gave the project up after a few attempts. It somehow was too
diffuse. Also, the whole subject of war, of nationalism, of the
stupidity and meanness of leaders and led, suddenly became too
repulsive. And it all came to a head today, when I sat again in
front of the computer and tried to push on with the writing, and
the telephone rang.
A cheerful girl's voice was heard: "Is this Boas?" I tried
feverishly to place that voice in my memory. It would be nice to be
on such familiar terms with a young lady again. I said
hesitatingly: "Yes?" And the voice continued in the same warm,
familiar tone, "I am calling on behalf of the Ways and Means
Magazine. We wanted to interest you in a special project we have
developed for a special person like you, blah, blah, blah...." It
was again one of those promotion tricks, copied clumsily from
American hard-sell marketing techniques and mixed with a generous
helping of Israeli vulgarity and revolting familiarity.
After getting rid of the obnoxiousness, I began to rethink my
proposed article, and drifted to the thought: So this is where 50
years of independence and sovereignty have brought us: to Bibi
Netanyahu; to rampant religious fundamentalism and black magic
superstitions; to these awful simpering girls aping slavishly the
worst features of what they think is "American"; to the broad
masses of ignorant people who vote Right against their own interest
and raise doubts about the very idea of democracy which was, after
all, designed for people aware of public affairs and able to come
to an independent and mature judgment about them according to their
considered interest; above all, to the stifling atmosphere of
constant hysteria and demagoguery, where nobody dares to speak
one's real mind for fear of the mob and its fomenters. (For
example: In a recent poll, hardly any Knesset member dared admit he
was an atheist, though I am certain many of them are.)
To me, independence and freedom are meaningless when applied in
distorted fashion to nations. National independence and sovereignty
have meaning only as means to personal freedom, to the protection
of civil and human liberties, to free thinking and speech and
creativity. "National glory" is mostly a myth used to bamboozle the
masses. "Our glorious past" is worthless when one is called upon to
sacrifice the present and the future to it.
Humanism, Nationalism, Bestiality
The great conservative Swiss thinker, Jakob Burckhardt, wrote in
reaction to the "Spring of Nations" in 1948 the maxim: "Von dem
Humanismus, durch den Nazionalismus, zu der Bestialitaet" (From
Humanism, through nationalism, to bestiality). Goethe stood averse
and hostile to the rising German nationalism of his time.
Nietzsche, contrary to his popular image as the prophet of power
politics, detested the bombastic nationalistic smugness of the new
German Empire (the Second Reich) after the victory over France in
1871, claiming that the greatest and best in the German spirit had
been vulgarized and prostituted by the nationalistic madness.
I feel today very much the same fear that our people are sweeping
in their arrogance of power and blindness into terrible
events.
I once was a member of Lehi (the Stern Group). I joined it in order
to win freedom from the British. I think that if I had to live my
life again, I still would have joined the fight for liberty,
although not perhaps as a member of Lehi. National liberty is,
unfortunately, today the precondition for a free, dignified life.
But it is not a guarantee of it. It is more an opportunity to
really begin to fight for it. What happens afterwards is generally
a tiresome vulgar mess, and the final outcome sometimes degenerates
into disaster and tragedy.
This I am writing sadly as a warning to our Palestinian friends,
who are now fighting for the basic right to exist as a nation,
which in their case today is to simply exist as human beings with
human dignity. I hope and am confident that they shall eventually
gain it. I also hope that they will then use it more wisely,
tolerantly and humanely than we have until now. More than that: I
think that only if they gain it, can we in Israel begin to live a
happier, freer life. This is why I write in this journal.